I am not upset I did not journal for a solid 5 days or so. But I have been driving and traveling. Spending time with family and friends, which has been a good change for me. I am trying to think of the last thing I wrote about and I know I can go back and look, but I kind of don't want to do that. So we are just going to wing it and if I repeat myself, I repeat myself.
On Wednesday morning, I drove to NC, spend time with ooh, let's call him Mark. I am not sure I have not talked about him yet. Surprise Surprise Mark is an ex-turned-best friend. In the past, we have had issues navigating our friendship attraction to each other, but for the last year, we have gotten a hang of it.
To give you some background. We dated for a year when I was a junior in college. He was great, a little immature and flighty, but he was also my last official boyfriend. He was the last person I was with before my mom passed away and the first person I reconnected with after she passed away. He has seen me through a lot, and he's kind of the only person who’s known me during my mom doing well when she got really sick and then when she was gone. He has changed and grown and I have too. Right after my mom passed away though, I was not in the place to date anyone he wanted to try again but I couldn't.
Anyways we drifted apart, I met Issac and started that never cycle, Mark got with someone, she got pregnant, got engaged to her, she had a miscarriage, he broke up with her, then got back together, in many ways I think she was his Issac. We did not really reconnect until, July 2020, when I told him I was going to move to VA. Since then we have been in contact. At first, we had slip-ups and occasional make-out sesh, but since December 2020, we are just, friends. When he comes to visit me, he sleeps on the pull-out couch, or even if we are on the same bed, we are on opposite ends and have no funny business. I went to see him and slept in his guest room. Like he is one of my best friends and someone, I go to for relationship advice and he comes to me for it, advice in general. I am not really jealous or hurt by it like I would have been 2–3 years ago.
Anyways back to the topic at hand. I went snowboarding for the very first time this week with Mark and his friends, and ate major dirt, and was constantly wiping out. I also tried venison for the first time, which was also an interesting experience. I have a major — major bruise on my knee and my ankle hurt a lot again, so that was not good on my body, but I am glad I tried something new and it was fun. I would definitely try it again, and keep learning. It is hard work and frankly, you need to be fit for it or have relatively good athleticism. I think the only exception to this, is only if you learned it at a young age and are pretty comfortable with skiing and snowboarding.
My entire body is in pain and my back hurts too and my legs are still sore, 3 days later. Tomorrow I will go back to the gym, let's see what happens. Anyways I wanted to go to a coffee shop and hang out there and write this blog of today, but I did some heavy cleaning instead. My bathroom, lounge, and my room. I have to still clean my kitchen and do the dusting, but I will do that tomorrow. I also am halfway done with my first book of the break, which is a little slower than I would like to be, but really I have only read for a day and an hour.
I also saw family yesterday for Christmas, and one of my friend's gifts got her, which I have to wrap. My dog was very mad with me when I got back. Spent the night taking a bath and watching a movie before I fell asleep.
I will go back to the 10/10/10 list.
